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WORLD
02:19
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Ten down, ten miles to go
found our way up to the coast, it was perfect.
I thought I was worth it.
But things feel different this time.
I got caught, throw me a line 'cause I'm sinking
In these new feelings
(okay)
Fears don't seem quite as tall,
Worries peeling off the walls and the ceiling
like it's nothing.
Accept all the things you find
and leave those sad old songs behind 'cause I don't think
they were helping.
Stepped outside and it felt like THE WORLD was new
So let's live like it's the last thing we'll do.
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2. |
Distanced
03:06
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has it been years?
have we lost count?
well if you're here for something,
spit it out.
Anything you want to say, I'm all ears
All those greatest insights, all those weakest jeers.
Seems like every time we've tried to get it right,
find it's easier to pretend that things are fine.
A few years can't be blamed for all these habits you've ingrained
when you were withdrawn and withheld,
so safe inside some shell.
Why don't you write a list of the people you truly know
so you can admit it's not as big,
it's not as big as it was sometime ago.
So leave it.
If it was years ago, just leave it.
and all the lies you told yourself, don't believe it.
'cause you won't know until you see it.
and I know you will some day.
If you severed all the ties weighing you down
Said it's just too much as you floated off past the stratosphere
Only to find yourself gasping for air again
well, just know that you're never too far gone
anyways..
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3. |
Landline
02:50
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It doesn't get easier, I know
It comes in waves, it comes and goes
Take a second, you'll be fine
It's okay to 'get away' sometimes
But oh no,
no, you never meant to go too deep,
when painful sights are all you can see,
familiar tones cutting through the unknown -
it's just your phone.
So call me up
when you think you're all alone,
and I'll calm you down
if you spin out of control.
Call this overbearing, I don't care i just want to know
how the hell you're doing
and what I can do to show
You have people who would listen.
No matter how dumb-sounding the problem,
or how insignificant it all is.
as you know.
So call me up
when you think you're all alone,
and I'll calm you down
if you spin out of control.
call this co-dependence, I don't care i just want to know
how the hell you're doing
and what I can do to show..
You have people who would listen.
No matter how dumb-sounding the problem,
or how insignificant it all is.
so let me know.
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4. |
Another June
02:53
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Another June again.
where has my mind been?
it's too easy to forget
ever since I hit reset.
It was two whole years ago
and I'm better now I know
so where did everyone go?
and why do I feel so old?
Another June again.
already at the end
I've lost count of regrets
and short-term goals I missed
Another Spring, Another May
Bringing proof that thing's won't change
another week, another day,
passing me by, I'm pissing it away.
The words and chords will change.
It all feels the same.
same old songs about these things again.
the people and places change,
it still feels the same.
another May, another May again.
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5. |
Guy Smiley
02:59
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Aimless with no sense of direction,
staring at reflections on the wall
I think I fell just short of tripping balls.
And I begin to wonder
what's keeping me under(neath)?
and does the world have it out for me?
With a sunny disposition
so nobody would question my defeat
if I gave up on my dreams some time ago.
I found a nice reflection
I'll never find perfection, and I know
but that's just the way it goes.
With the days coming on, and they keep coming on.
Hope's not hard to find.
All the answers were inside all along,
start letting people in to prove your doubts wrong.
Find new ways to change
and let go of the shame that you kept
from your past and your regrets
and just keep going on
with the days coming on
and they'll keep coming on
so just keep pushing on.
Keep that smiling disposition.
Keep searching for all the things you're missing.
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6. |
(interlude)
00:30
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7. |
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hey,
about last night
things were weird
I can tell 'cause you're not here
I felt I should apologize for all the things I don't realize
She said that thing but I don't mind
forgot the point, so whatever, fine
we tend to leave the past behind
we're only human beings, right?
(somehow though, we don't know)
So why do I think it'll all be fine
If I could just bite my tongue this time?
'Cause this won't fit, I knew from the start
But the show can't quit so I'll play the part
She's so sick
of waiting
all the patience
I've been draining
for the moment
strikes never
and I'm not worth waiting on forever
the lost cause
once called hope
I was so wrong not to let go
(you were wrong)
So why talk? why argue?
why care when you don't have to?
why live outside your own truth,
cut to fit the shape you were never meant to?
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8. |
Top Speed
03:20
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Shot loose
cold fuse
top speed
overshot the green
but there's no going back,
those aren't the rules
and in retrospect won't do you any good
can't stop
speeding train
all I want
freeze frame.
Am I losing all my time?
Falling into routines and just trying to survive
Metaphorical streetlamps passing by
When everything stays the same,
change only gets harder with time.
Control
Crisis
Chronophobic again.
Barrelling at top speed
Stuck in the back seat again.
Shot loose
cold Fuse
top speed
overshot the green
Stuck in these repeats
When all I want is some peace
or something along those lines
'cause it's hard to be present with that obsession on my mind.
It's counter-intuitive, I find
to worry all the time.
Am I losing all my time?
Falling into routines and just staying alive
with absent presence and absent mind
already left the future behind.
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9. |
Pine era
02:48
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Stress your little mind, create the perfect little life
to live without regrets when you look back at these nights.
From a future that I can't see,
and I can't fight it 'cause I can't breathe
when the panic's overwhelming,
all the pressure's not helping.
From the outset, that wasn't the mindset I needed back then.
Now it's over. Was it ever all you wanted?
Then you start to mark the periods of your life by the value packs of the trash bags you bought. The air freshener in your car. 'Pine Era'. (gross).
Think of all the places you haven't been yet. People you don't know yet.
All the ways you can grow. As you decompose. One in the same.
From the outset, never had the mindset I needed back then.
Then it's over, without closure, before you even know.
Leave it all behind. Never have to Pine again.
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10. |
Vexatious
03:33
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It's been a while, how have things been?
Feel free to lie to that question.
sometimes we don't really know.
and who's to say the truth is owed?
Seasons change, they come and go.
It's less vexatious than it felt before.
I guess that's part of this whole 'moving on'
or just placebic symptoms I've foregone.
If we could go back to those days,
in the end what could we have changed?
I remember not that long ago
in that small rundown studio apartment
where resentment was soundly invoked
all those ill thoughts we never spoke
seemed so distraught,
so instead I thought
"if we could just leave this place"
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11. |
Daguerrotype // end
02:19
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Another boring being dressed in boring clothes
A daguerrotype, a label on the nose.
Exhales past bitter teeth, creating fragile tones
Tells that story it's the only one he knows.
Another human being dressed in human clothes
A daguerrotype, a label on the nose.
Exhales past bitter teeth, creating off-key tones
Sings a story, but it's not the one they know.
sand the edges 'til there's nothing left to show.
lost that self. became the ego.
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12. |
Around the Corner
03:30
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Searching for meaning in all the wrong places
Bury your regrets and follow me.
One day you'll be fine, kid. I know it.
Still finding out what that means.
So this is it, it's everything you wanted.
The full picture, the missing piece.
Think of all that you gave up just to find out
the grass is gray on either side.
Push through, 'cause it's always around the corner
and other lies keeping me okay.
A state of mind, but it follows.
Help takes time — you're finding excuses,
All the answers are there, in time.
All of the answers — you're ignoring them.
Getting sick of writing verbatim diaries of problems,
puke it up, call it a song.
Ill-thought out frustrations, dumb feelings and troubles.
When will I stop getting thing wrong?
Push through, 'cause it's always around the corner
and other lies keeping me okay.
A state of mind, but it follows.
Help takes time — you're finding excuses,
All the answers are there, in time.
All of the answers — you're ignoring them.
I know how to solve these problems, I just keep ignoring them.
Try to run away from these problems, I'm ignoring them.
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